It’s very hard to pretend to be the strong one, I miss you.
God has a plan for all of us, so I’ve heard.
Lets pretend and live in dreams.

“I built us a flying machine, and we’ll go where you want, and we’ll sail the seven seas. I hope all is well in daisys dreams”

I’ve learnt that sometimes reality hurts.

Hmm, I wish I brought my Weetzie bat collection with me, I suddenly have this urge to immerse myself reading the Block’s words and getting mesmerized by them. I miss getting mesmerized.

“Our eyelashes brushed like they would weave together by themselves, turning us into one wild thing. I say, “I think I missed you before I even met you.””

Ugghh, quotes are just not enough :( I want my books! :’(

In 8 weeks, it will all be over.
No more school uniforms,
no more menopausal teachers,
no more assunta-printed cotton socks,
no more white canvas shoes.
In 8 weeks, we will all have a new set of priorities.
No more studying for SPM,
no more memorizing moral nilais,
no more going for tuitions.
In 8 weeks, I get to see you again.
andspendeverysingledaywithyouuntilwehavetoleave.
How I anticipate and dread the end of the next 8 weeks.

I LOVE Carrie!

She called me while Boys Like Girls played Thunder at WorldStage!
Haiyo, I feel like crying cause I missed it live.
But thaaaanks Carrie, you turned this sickday into a happyday (:

If you backtrack on my blog you’ll see that Thunder’s been my favourie song since I was 14.

Haiyo. When I get married,
The husband is hiring BoysLikeGirls to play Thunder at the wedding.

You, don’t feel bad.
I am so unimaginably sick I would have died if I went for World Stage.
It’s even raining right now so I really mean DIE.
My neighbours are renovating I think.
There’s this annoying knocking sound.
Brb, I need to take the hammer and kill someone.

yasmin ahmad.

It was our last Interact General Meeting yesterday :(
My mom said that we’re going to have so many “LASTS” now. Aiyooo.
In my head I still imagine myself to be a 13 year old girl getting ready to go to school.
But we’re 17.
It’s Form5.
And we’re stepping down.
(Or as I like to call it, getting dethroned)
:(A lot of waterworks.

Now to distract you from me looking like a total swine when I cry,
HERE ARE PICTURES OF RESHMIN CRYING.



:(
It’s OVERRRRRRRRRR.


Today was just horrible.
Days like this make me want to go to US sooner.
I don’t know if it’s the hormones, or the stress or the problems.
But after a tiring day of walking everywhere, making sure people get things done, fighting with mental teachers, trying to get my friends stupid attention, I just went back to my class and cried it all out.

Zara and co. made me a card to cheer me up.

Kept me sane till about 10 minutes ago.
Bah.
Hormones.

Decaying.
Dusty.
Dead.

Maybe it’s part of me wanting to do well.
I owe this to myself.
But if I don’t make it…
haihs.
:(

Help me.

You, stupid stupid addiction.
I need to focus.
I HATE PHYSICS.
:(