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I’M SO SORRY I HAVEN’T BEEN BLOGGING.

I just moved, you see. And I don’t have a computer. I don’t have an internet connection. Basically, I LIVE IN THE 15TH CENTURY. But wait, I bet the people who lived then were more civilized than how I’m living right now.

My life has just been uberly depressing and boring. Since it’s the holidays and all. I hate holidays. I like two week holidays. Not two month holidays. I honestly don’t know how you people can stand summer break. It’s like what? 3 months? Die la.
So Thursday night I sleptover at Brindhas house. We watched Spanglish at night. Then we played carom. I suck at carom so I don’t want to blog about what happened. Ya la, ya la. Some people suck at some stuff kayh? You try fighting with a guy taller than you and damn strong in taekwondo. Hah. Bodoh!

The next morning we reached Hanisahs house around 8am. But we left at 10.30am. (To Port Dickson) And we reached there around 12.30pm. Why? I have no idea. I slept throughtout almost the whole ride there. Haha. When we reached there, sand was blowing in my face. x_x cannot tahan la. I felt like crying Diyanah (Hanisah’s 12 year old sister who is tall and has super super besar *ahems*) and I were “sakit”. So yeah, while Adam and Richard (Ross’s little brother!!! Trust him to be the spawn of the devil. Richard, not Ross.) played under the sun for like hours, getting all hitam, Diyanah, Brindha, Hanisah, Wing Jun and I just sat. Emo-ing. Well, Wing Jun emo’d laaa

Poor guy. He sayangs Diyanah sooo much. But nooooooo, Diyanah is so horrible. Break his tiny little heart Evil tall biss.

Omg, how could we ever forget the posing? (Okay, I just realized I didn’t pose. But we took a picture of Adam with boobies. It so makes up for everything.)

While posing, I was like “AIYAHHHHHH SO PANAS LAAAAAA” and Hanisah was like “Kan you ni ‘oh so panas’ right??”

Yes, I am memang ohsopanas. Tapi I hate the sun. It will make me all black like Adam and Diyanah.

So I got like these really really cheap flip flops and I needed them cause the ones I borrowed from Brindha were giving me scars on my pretty pretty feet. And well, they’re pink, so I’m happy And then after that, we jet-ski’d. I was quite freaked out la. I’m not a water person. First the guy let me tekan the thing, and I went so fast he almost FELL IN THE OCEAN. I wanted to cry X_X Then he told me to slow down, and I did. Then this big big wave came and omg I was so fast we almost flew in the air. Then I told him to drive the thing for me. And I kept on screaming. I think I broke his eardrums or something. Then he was giving me a lecture. In the middle of the ocean. Once again, I repeat: I was getting a lecture in the middle of the ocean. =.=

“Adik kena buang takut dalam laut bla bla bla”

My ass I’ll be buang-ing any takutness in that laut.

Omg omg and after that, Hanisah, Wing Jun, Adam, Richard and Brindha all went on the evil BANANA BOAT!!! Since Diyanah and I were “sick” we decided to stay in the main boat to prevent the ocean from turnining red. Yes, eww, I know.

But, of course I recorded it Not the falling, but the screaming

After that they wanted to go on the Banana Boat again. This time, I decided to go on it as well Take the risk la. Ocean turn red, turn red la. I wanna have fun. Since it was my first time going after a really really long time, I was like so anxious. And guess what? After our first fall (Which was o-kay laa), it started to rain. So our boat is speeeeeeeeeding, and the rain is hitting against our faces. So sakit but so fun!!! I guess my only banana boat related problem is..

I never seem to be able to get back on the boat. And everytime I fall, I tend to scream “WE’RE ALL GONNA DIEEEEEEEEEEE”

Ho Wing Jun somehow cut his leg. BLEEDING. In the OCEAN. SHARKS ARE ATTRACTED TO BLOOD OKAYH? WE COULD HAVE ALL DIED X_____________X Stupid Ho Wing Jun.

Whatever.

(Btw, the ocean did not turn red. Thank God to pressure.)

After that we all rushed, mandi mandi, then go makan in Seremban!! I loved the food After dinner, Diyanah stands up and goes like “I’m gonna drive the car back to KL!”

Then Ho Wing Jun burst out laughing and comes to me and tells me “Now you really have a reason to scream that we’re all gonna die“

Ever since then, Hanisah and I couldn’t stop laughing. We laughed so hard. I felt like I was going to puke. Then Diyanah was like “If you puke we’re gonna throw you out of the car!!” *everyone else still laughing their guts out* Then Hanisah said “Even if we drove 100 km away, we can still hear Shivani laughing and puking and laughing and puking”

and it went on and on for hours la.

we just couldn’t stop laughing.

I’m so glad I went despite the fact I was “sick” it was so fun and so worth it.

Then I came home, and Ross called me. He was so sad that Hanisah didn’t invite him!! If Ross were there, it would have been so much more fun Maybe next time okayh Ross? We shall leave the choral speaking wars behind us and move on. XD (Plus, we all know who’s the better team)

Anyways, so sorry YW and Rubesh No pictures of me this time.

alaa…maybe next time k?

“I’m a war, of head versus heart“

Aren’t we all?

About furball, I wish to no longer speak of her in this blog. Despite how hilarious it is most of ya’ll are trying to figure out who furball is in the first place, I guess we just got to save the humour. At first I realized that furball was very misunderstood so I felt like it was my obligation for everyone to know how she really is. But then I guessed it’s not her fault people don’t think the way she does, it’s just the way she is. And changing that would be very un-furball-ish.

I know you want to talk about my life.

I want too.

But my camera isn’t with me.

And what’s the point about talking about my life if there aren’t no visual images for you to drool over?

Ha ha ha.

“I need to know, yes or no. Are you gonna give me my fairytale or am I gonna need to make my own?”

p.s/ little brother turns 12 tomorrow

xoxoxo [ 10.41 PM ]

I think I’m head over heels in love…

with this song

Edwin McCain - Farewell To Tinkerbell

Hey Tink it’s me Peter, I know it’s been a long, long time

I hope you and the lost boys are doing just as fine

As that time we showed that Captain Hook and Smee a thing or two

I think you know why I’m rhyming and I hope that you’re not blue

You see I’ll keep you in my heart and you’ll always be my friend

But I can’t come back to Neverland again

You see I’ve found this great adventure and it’s stronger than the Pan

And the path that I follow will help me be a man

And I know there will be times that I will wish for fairy’s dust

You know I’ve found a good woman and she’s cleaning up the rust

From this battered-up heart that’s made of junkyard tin

But I can’t come back to Neverland again

No I can’t come back to Neverland again

I still want to hear the stories of treasure ships and fights

And all the daring rescues and all the full moon nights

Sprinkled with the light from stars above

And Tink you know you’ll always have my everlasting love

So just clap your hands and count back down to ten

But I can’t come back to Neverland again

No I can’t come back to Neverland again

And the years will pass and all my hair turns gray

And I’ll hear your voice while my grandkids play

And feel your mischief as they kick me in my shins

But I can’t come back to Neverland again

No I can’t come back to Neverland again

No I can’t come back to Neverland again

No I can’t come back to Neverland again

This song is beautiful. I mean it reminds me of the fact that there comes a time when we just have to grow up. But not in bad way. It’s like you’re growing up into this whole new world of love and friends but at the same time never forgetting the people who made you the person you are. About two years ago, I wanted to be “Polly” Pan. Female of “Peter” Pan. Cause I never wanted to grow up. I wanted to be a kid forever. I wanted to be able to eat icecream all day long. I wanted to live the life. And sadly, I grew up. But I guess growing up does have its benefits. I understood the reality of life. I guess it does suck once in a while, but what I’m starting to learn is: When it doesn’t suck, it rocks a hell lot.

We’re finally shifting tomorrow.

Let’s talk about my room The main wall is this dark shade of pinkish/purple and the other three walls are this lighter shade of purple. My furniture is white. And my dressing table is ohsopretty.

I feel like a princess!!!

Though everyone else feels my bedroom is like a four year olds room. They’re just jealous cause I’m a princess and they’re not!!!

I’m also going to be living closer to all the hot people in the world. (And Naomi and Brindha) But I’m far far away from my lalaz-in-denials. Bleh. All three of them are mine. I’m still their manager after all.

Haih.

Furball is still ohsodepressed.

Have you ever felt like you’re just holding on to nothing? To something that just doesn’t exist anymore? It’s driving us all crazy. And people end up getting more hurt than they expected to be. It’s like they’re just hanging on to this moment and I swear they’re about to fall. I need to know if you’re going to catch me.

Or am I just gonna have to learn how to fly?

The only logical explanation for the freaky alikeness between Harmini, Kimberly and I is…

we are soulsisters!!!

Not in that freaky 60’s hippie chick kinda way. But seriously, soul sisters. It’s the only explanation for the series of freakishly events that’s been going on. The only difference is that I’m cute, Kim’s hot and Mini is sexy. Like the evalution of the-girl kind, haha.

I got this from Harminis blog, the pink martini

I don’t sing. (I sound like a frog)

I don’t play an instrument. (I do but I suck)

But still, I’m such a rockstar. (Duh)

Only because I party like a rockstar and I’m the girl all the rockstars sing about. (My ex main pic, remember?)

Either way, you can’t be me. (Of course not, unless you’re my soulsister)

I’m a rockstar. (Like duh)

And you know you love it. (Hell yeah)

Freaky nuff?

Remember the stuff tallguy said to furball about hitam? Well, apparently it’s true. But hitam isn’t sure yet if he’s willing to take that risk. But furball is. I feel so bad for calling my friend furball XD She likes cats. And one time when I was at her house for a sleepover, there was a furball and I asked her “Dude…this furball came from YOU. EWW” cause I didn’t know she had a cat sleeping under her bed but yeah whatever back to her depressing life- so now she’s pretty much happy/freaked out on what hitam is going to say to her.

(I’m currently being distracted by my cute 11 year old blonde-ears-pierced cousin. He sorta broke his leg and was in a cast and now his cast is off and one leg is harrier than the other It’s so hilarious I want to take a picture of it while he sleeps!!!)

Back to furball. Girl you know I’m here for you. I hope your life gets better when hitam decides to confess his undying love for you. And if he does, you’re suppose to pray three hours straight.

P.s/ This *woman* is pissing me off! I don’t think that she’ll leave to go to another country while her kid has exams JUST FOR FUN. Of course she has her reasons, she didn’t just wake up one morning and decide to LEAVE just before the most important exam of her kids life. She’s not stupid y’know? I know you hate her and all, but respect is important. And how on earth do you expect me to respect someone who can only talk bad about other people?

and i will sing my song for you until you look me in the face,
press your lips against my own so i know just the way you taste.
and i will sing my song for you until the bombs wipe out the clouds,
i will stand against the ruins and i will scream your name out loud.

xoxoxo [ 11.22 PM ]

You remember that furball friend I was talking about? Well, she’s quite upset now. She really wants this hitam guy, who knows she likes him a lot. She’s even told him how she felt while she was with her ex and hitam didn’t say anything, so she’s guessing it’s a onewayfeeling. I know furball and hitam read my blog. I know what’s in hitams head right now “wtf?”

Yes. Shh.

And furball has this junior friend, who thinks hitam is very delicious as well. But here’s the thing, her junior friend is obviously hotter and the better choice. But all she wants is to make out. But shit la. Furball is going to be so damn hurt. She already is. Which is why I’m blogging about this.

Cause I have no idea what to do or say to her!!!

Remember tallguy? Well earlier today he and furball were talking. Furball forwarded me their messages, it went something like this.

furball: is my ex okay?

tallguy: yes but thank god he doesnt know about you and hitam!

furball: what about me and hitam? hitam doesnt even care about me. he practically hates me. how do you know anyways?

tallguy: i read his phone. he hates you? but i thought he wanted to date you o.o;

furball: what? he doesn’t even talk to me anymore…

tallguy: oh. im sorry.

furball: yeah, me too.

tallguy: g2g, i wanna eat roti canai!!!

When furball send me that I was like “What the hell?” and she was like “My thoughts exactly”

Tallguy is hitams best friend. Why would he say that hitam wanted furball o.o For a fact I know, Furball is just praying that it’s true.

I know Furball. She’s sorta like my best friend. She always gets her guys. Cept the ones she really wants. Like Hitam.

I wish Hitam would stop being such an ass and just call her and talk to her. Cause I don’t know how to comfort her. I understand how much she’s hurting. But I don’t know what to do.

Furball told me she’ll pray for 3 hours straight if Hitam confessed his undying love to her

XD

Two friends of mine were having this conversation. I find it extremely hilarious and decided to blog about it. Though they would like to remain anonymous, I will still give them ohsopanas names. The girl will be called furball. The guy will be called tallguy. And the other guy that they are talking about will be called hitam.

furball: tallguy! i want hitam, i want hitam!

tallguy: you don’t need hitam la, you got me

furball: no, i want hitam! he makes me get butterflies in my stomach!

tallguy: well, i can make you get caterpillar. lol, ha ha.

When “furball” told me this, I cracked up laughing.

Caterpillar my ass la.

Hahaha.

Harmini and her boyfriend, well ex, broke up. I don’t know his name. I know it’s different. But I can never remember it. Anyways, I thought she’d be devastated But which girl would cry over a WadeRobsonlookalike when she has a Nishan. Nishan happens to be this very gorg. guy Harmini knows. And when I say very gorg., I mean it.

He takes the male form of ohsopanas.

While I take the female form

And isn’t his name ohsosexy as well?

So like 10 minutes ago, Harmini and I were talking, and then Nishan is outside her house or whatever, gives her a hug, and goes back home.

How sweet is that?

Very.

And when Harmini told me..

Me: Omg! You guys should so get married! Your babies would look SO cute

Harmini: Yeah I know!

Me: But omg, I HAVE TO BE THE FLOWER GIRL. I KNOW IM TOO OLD TO BE A FLOWER GIRL. BUT I JUST HAVE TO BE THE FLOWER GIRL. CAN I? CAN I? PLEEEEASE??

Harmini: Punjabi-style wedding laa.

Me: Oh so? Receptions got flower girls whaat? I’ll just be wearing a very pretty lenga.

Harmini: Pink lenga.

Me: OKAY! YAY IM GONNA BE THE FLOWER GIRL OMG OMG IM THE FLOWER GIRL OMG OMG OMG. IM THE FLOWER GIRL YAY

I also told Harmini that she had to name her kids after me, and she actually does wanna name her daughter Shivani (and I didn’t even have to force her like how I had to do to Warren and Aaron!)

Harminis daughter Shivani: Mummy, who was I named after?

Harmini: The giant flowergirl at my wedding.

I’m so glad she’s gonna marry Nishan! Yay! Omg omg omg! I don’t care if she’s 18. Lots of people get married at 18. Plus, Nishan isn’t gonna be so hot forever okay? Oh but wait. He’s so beautiful his beauty could be immortalized!!!

Harmini says he has cousins my age And they are as beautiful. She also says I don’t need to worry cause he has lots and lots of cousins

Me: Omg, you’re spoiling me.

Harmini: You’re exactly like me, you deserve to be spoiled.

Yeah, I know

Omg I did something crazy today. I killed a roach x_x

Me: Yew Wing! I killed a roach today!!!

YW: What? Hahahahahahaha.

Me: There’s a dead roach on my floor and you are LAUGHING?

YW: What did you kill it with?

Me: *I’m so not mentioning this to public :P*

YW: But why did you kill it?

Me: It tried to eat me.

I swear, it wanted to eat me!!!!!!

YW: Aww, you’re so cute.

A roach is trying to eat me, and you are calling me cute?

Mad arr?

Haven’t laughed this hard in a long time,

I better stop now before I start crying.

Go off to sleep in the sunshine

I don’t want to see the day when it’s dying.

xoxoxo [ 10.46 AM ]

I know, I know. I miss me too My holidays have been great so far. Last week was cool, can’t remember much though. On Monday, Hanisah and I went out for that movie. Tuesday, I stayed home but ended up going Taekwondo. And yesterday, Phaik May and a few of us went to KL. So yeah, it was all fun

Next week Harmini and I are gonna get braids done by her friend in cyberjaya x_x I wonder how I’d look in braids? Amsyar says it’ll be funky whereas Rubesh is like “I like your hair just the way it is”

=.=

In less than an hour, my brother will be getting his UPSR results. Then later he’ll most prolly drag my parents to megamall to get him his present. I think he wants new football shoes but I swear if that kid gets a phone, I am going to scream. You see, my dad promised me he’d get me my phone yesterday. Then he said since we’re moving and all, it’s best if I get it in December. December? Yeah, I can wait. Then I told him that the price dropped of that certain phone I want and I guess it would be better if we get it in December. I was agreeing with him. Then he tells me it’ll go back up in December cause of Christmas. I’m like so get it now la? And he said No. In January.

What. The. Hell. La.

I’ve used my damn Sony for two years. Two whole years, I took good care of it. I never let it get spoiled. And my brothers got their phones even before UPSR. Spoiled much? Yeah I know we’re moving and it’s difficult bla bla bla. BUT THEN YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE PROMISED ME A DAMN PHONE IN THE FIRST PLACE RIGHT.

Haih. And yesterday after KL, we were suppose to drop Phaik May home. And he was acting so embarrassing. I never get embarrassed of my parents. My mom tried to embarrass me, but it never works. But yesterday, they seriously crossed the line. I don’t think they want me to hate them right? I love my dad and all but why do they try their best to act like a kid? He acts like my brothers sometimes. I don’t know, what? Maybe he finds it cute. Yeah well, newsflash. It’s not cute. It’s embarrassing. Do they want me to hide them from my life? I don’t think so and damn I don’t want too. My brother didn’t even let my parents go for orientation yesterday. Gee, I wonder why.

Bleh. Let me talk about a happy-something-else. Oh wait. Nothing happy going on in this world. Crap.

“You take me to a higher ground, then you knock me off my feet. Lately all I think about is you, cause you’ve been creeping in my dreams“

“Everyone’s saying that they’ve got the answers, but hope is deceiving and spreads like a cancer”

I feel really really bad. Okay so there are these two guys. That I was never close to at all. Now I guess you could say I’m getting close to the both of them. But the thing is: they are both after one girl. And she’s practically my best friend. And I’m helping the both of them. Which makes me not want to help at all. But I feel like I’m obliged to help them both. Cause I feel the pain of one, and I understand the other. But at the same time, I don’t want to hurt them. And more importantly, I don’t want to hurt the girl. Cause we are so close and we’re all going to be famous rockstars together. And she’s like my best friend. After a very very long time I finally have someone who just gets me x_x and doesn’t think my craze over Asian boys are stupid. She completely understands my need to enter every lala store. She understands how ice cream cools me down when I’m in shock. And I don’t wanna screw that up.

Now, I’m hoping these two guys are reading this.

I want to help the both of you.

But I can’t.

I know I promised, but do you honestly want her to get hurt?

Cause that will be the only thing you’d be getting out of this promise.

Haih.

Tomorrow is going to be a very long day. Exciting. Restless. Long.

Let’s hope everything goes well And by saying everything going well, I mean, let’s hope I always look hot throughout every second. But hey, don’t I always?

You said you’d never let go of me.

So I let go of you.

Cause you deserve so much more.

xoxoxo [ 2.56 PM ]

Oh. My. GOD.

I know it’s very rude to use the Lords name in vain, but screw you.

You see, the other day (Wednesday actually) on my way for rockclimbing, they announced on the radio, that the hitz.fm cruisers were outside my school. So I go and win myself a pair of tickets for Happy Feet. So I decide to take Hanisah along I swear Hanisah and I could do anything together. It’s so fun to shop with her. We try on all these weird lala clothes that can’t fit us and make our…um, nevermind.

So she and I go. We go collect our ticket. The show starts at 9. So we have 1 hour and 10 minutes to kill. On our way down, guess who we see?

Wong Ryui Bynn a.k.a BOO!!!

I swear I almost DIED X_X

I was like “Ryui Bynn?”

“Hey..what you doing here?”

“Hi.”

“Haha, hey, what you doing here?”

“Hi.”

“…”

“Oh err, this is Hanisah, Hanisah this is Boo”

*they shake hands*

“Oh yeah, we’re watching Happy Feet…you?”

“Oh yeah…us too”

When he says “us”, he was referring to his friend with a broken nose that Hanisah and I were making fun of earlier, whoops

Anyways, Hanisah and I left and walked around. I was in shock. And really excited. We both think that Boo is the hottest creation of God and just his SMILE is magickal and can makeanunhorny.

I am so going to hell after this post x_x

Then Pui Yee calls me “Where are you?? Meet me at McD okay?”

So we go to McD.

Guess who we see?

BOO!!andyeahPuiYeewasalsothere =.=

So Pui Yee and I chat then Boo tells me “Apparently your friend and my friend (not broken nose guy, some other weirdo) are on a blind date. Weird eh? Btw, are you stalking me?”

No. I am NOT STALKING YOU. I got better hotties to stalk ;]yeahright.

So then I walk off and go windowshop with Hanisah. The only money we spent were on these really really cool sparkly hairbands. I got blue and she got gold Then we walk in to Miss Whatever, and guess who we see?

Emica!!!seansneighbourthatrubeshtriedtokill

I was like “Omg, Emica?”

“Oh hey!!”

“I’m Shivani..remember me?”

“Yeah! Who you here with?”

“Hanisah and oh yeah Pui Yee is here too”

“I know I’m hanging with her actually”

“Oh wow. Do you know I’m totally in love with her blind dates friend?”

“Reeeeally?”

He’s hot. Nuff said.

So then Hanisah and I decide to go back to the cinema since the movie is about to start, while giving our tickets…guess who we see?

This really hot guy *drool* and standing beside him, HARMINI!!!

I was like “Happy Feet?”

“Haha, of course”

But I decided to not annoy her as much as I usually do. The guy beside her was a hottie x_x You go girl. And if he’s your brother, tell him I’m available Lol, jkjk.

Though Boo and I were not in the same cinema We still were stuck with Pui Yee, Emica and Myra God knows where the blind dates went. We waited for about 40 minutes. To entertain ourselves, we started throwing popcorn at eachother. It was so fun. Poor Myra practically hid her head to avoid the war of the popcorn

Then the movie started. It was so damn funny. One penguin sounded like Elvis. I was like “I thought he died. Elvis, I mean.” Then for God knows what reason, the ugly Indian guy behind me burst out laughing =.=;; I swear if he got any of his spit on my hair, my ghost will haunt him until the day he dies T_T

I swear I love Jamaican Penguins. “Give me a fin maan!”

Anyways, the movie finished around 11.30. We then went home. Dropped Hanisah back home. Came home. And the first thing I did, blogged

I think I require and applause for this dedication haha.

What was really weird was…

Shivani sees funny guy with broken nose-broken nose dude is with boo-boo is with other friend-other friend is on blind date-blind date dude is with pui yee-we are kononnya with pui yee too-emica is there and shes with pui yee too. I guess the only person who didn’t fit in the picture was Harmini, haha. But hey, you just gotta love that girl ^^

After all,

she’s sugar and spikes and everything nice.

Okay; I know my old blog rocked, a lot.

I’m trying my BEST to make this blog better.

BUT YOU TELLING ME TO MY FACE THAT I’M NOT GOING TO MAKE IT HONESTLY DOESN’T HELP ESPECIALLY WHEN I’M TRYING SO HARD TO MAKE THIS BLOG BETTER.

So if you have your comments; KEEP IT TO YOURSELF.

Cause honestly; if anyone for that matter wants to act like a bitch to me (be it guy or girl), I swear there’s a million ways I can make your life a living hell

After all, my birthright is Omen ;]

I can do scary things.

Back to the rainbow part of my life:

- Lyndon looks so hot bald.
- Hanisah and I are going for a movie tonight.
- Rubesh is getting a blog So much for blogs are for gay people arr?
- Dionne should be happier now
- Brindha is…where are you Brindha? o.o;;
- Weng Onn is sitting for his geography paper right now

Btw…isn’t this ohsosweet?

Boy: I can’t get you outta my mind.
Girl: I can’t get you outta my heart.
Boy: Wow. You’re the sweetest girl I’ve ever met.
Girl: Haha, well you’re the sweetest thing that ever happened to me
Boy: You Win.

Dear God; when I grow up and have to marry someone cause I’m old and ugly with wrinkles, please give me my fairytale

After all, hopeless romantics are the ones who have a sense of reality on how life’s gonna be like.

Sorta.

;]