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I think my soul left me for a long time and decided to drop by to say hello today.

How apropriate.

So the hurt is finally kicking in. I think my feminist alterego took over me while my soul left. Which explains all the hate/revenge/etc. But now since my souls back. It’s like, I have no way out.

So I was going through my comments and bla bla in friendster, then when I saw the date of this one comment (17th March)…I realized, it’s been 13 days. Since I was happy. This may sound totally stupid. But haven’t you had one of those days where you were HAPPY and weren’t worried or troubled by ANYTHING?

It’s been 13 days since I’ve had one of those days. And to be very honest, I wish everyday was like 13 days ago.

Yuvanes (who just so happens to be the person who gives the second best advice. first best advice = rubesh. he says “aiyah go break the *toots* face la!”) says that I should let the pieces fall together.

We always let pieces fall together. We always SAY “Things will be alright once all the pieces fall together”

But how come no one wants to answer me, what will happen when all these pieces fall out of place?

Since 13 days ago, today has been the worst yet. You know what? Reality sucks. We should all just go to sleep. Nights.

So I just saw one of the most prettiest things you must totally see before you die. It’s like a halo around the moon. Sortof hard to take a picture, so of course, I googled it after staring at it for so long.

Apparently, high high up in the sky there are these clouds known as cirrus clouds and there are ice crystals in these clouds. When all the light from earth (streelights, buildings, etc.) reaches these ice crystals, I think it reflects and refracts at the same time causing the halo to apppear. It’s like an optical phenomenon.

It looks something like this;

But if you looked at it when I sms’d/im’d you, you’d notice the arrangement of stars that makes it look so perfect. You know the term “as if the stars had all fallen from the sky” well, it was something like that.

xoxoxo [ 8.53 PM ]

Me: What’s the longest you’ve gone without farting?

Yuvanes: I don’t seem to remember

Me: Did you fart today?

Yuvanes: I don’t remember if I farted today

Me: Why didn’t you fart today?

Yuvanes: I don’t know

Me: Do you LIKE to fart?

Yuvanes: NO!!!

Me: Why not? You release all the bad stuff ;]

Yuvanes: LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, farting is so cool. I wonder if we can fart like colourful gasses. That would be so cool. Imagine you’re in school and SUDDENLY you fart and you’re friends will be like “OMG YOUR GAS IS PURPLE THAT IS SOOO COOOL”

I remember one time, Hanisah and I came up with scented fart. Or was it scented shit? Everytime we fart/shit, instead of that icky smell, it would be SCENTED.

I want to smell like strawberries every time I fart

xoxoxo [ 5.45 PM ]

“I know that I can’t make you stay

But where’s your heart?”

For someone who totally hates MCR, I’m starting to think that they are o-kaay laaa. But honestly, the only thing I’m waiting for is April 2nd; LPs new song It’s seems totally rad so far.

So I finally finished my peka. Starting off with my KGT tomorrow. God, this whole Form 3 thing is starting to get on my nerves la. And I was never in sports in form 1 and form 2, but since this year we require certs, I’m stuck in volleyball. Brin and I spent four hours just brushing up on our very-very-horrible-volleyball. I think it all rounds off to the fact that we’re terrified of Samantha and Lee Min. And that I don’t want to be hitting the ball to Niks face anytime soon.

Speaking of Nik,

she says I’m “Sombong”

I am NOT SOMBONG.

Just malu la =P

hehehe.

(To my readers who don’t know what “sombong” means, it means, stuck up. Am I stuck up? I don’t think so =P)

Anyhowever, I’m not talking to someone anymore. I keep going back to the one thing I need to get away from. So my solution to this problem is: To delete phone number and don’t keep contact. I don’t want to seem like a coward, which clearly I am, but “I know it sounds so old but cupid caught me in a chokehold”. So what else am I gonna do?

Plus, it’s not like that loser bothered talking to me kan? Some friends were just meant to be…discarded. I know that’s a horrible thing to say, but hell it’s a horrible thing to do what loser did to me. So we’re even. On losers blog it’s like “I miss - bla bla - thinks fake - bla bla” and I’m definitely sure that it doesn’t go out to me. If it does, tell me. Don’t blog about it.

But that’s OBVIOUSLY not important, I need to go eat real food now. It’s been a while.

HAPPY SWEET 16 CARMEN CHAN KAH MUN.

xoxoxo [ Before I realized it was Carmens Birthday, lol ]

I’m baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack

So first thing I did when I got back yesterday;

sleep.

If it makes my amazing “certain subject” teacher happy, I didn’t exactly have much fun. I fell sick. Does that make you feel better madam? I hope it does. Your curses worked.

ANYHOWEVER;

Day One.

The bus ride was pretty horrible x_x Shiva and I fell so so sick. They surprised us by taking us to the chocolate factory first =D

I know you are all like totally DYING to see the pictures right?

Well, guess what =D

….

No photography allowed =.=;;;

I know, stupid. Bleh. Anyhowever. Once we reached, we did bowling =D Out of 144 - I got 8. Quite a good improvement from like zero? I bet ya’ll know our PJ teacher, Miss Azreena? Well, it was her first time too. She sort of had LOTS AND LOTS of fun going against Daru, sticking her butt out, thinking the higher you stick out your butt, the more you hit the pins hehehe.

Then after a wonderful pizzahut dinner of which Phaik May and I were totally torturing the waiters with our “extra refills” lol, we decided it was time to go for that Fly - Defy Gravity show. Aka, worlds most boring/useless show. Daru aka “mummy” was literally sleeping on me throughout the whole show

Oh but wait,

These were my favorite pictures of busride/pizzahut

I bet Rubesh is just dying seeing Manveen and I sitting on the same table. I wonder what made him think that I hated her. Hmm.

Anyhowever, after that, while some decided to go watch Mr.Bean, while some decided to go eat ice cream, PM, Man, Daru, Mershel, Shiva and I went to Starbucks and had hot chocolate and fraps. We had fun. We talked about all the hot hot beautiful boys in the world. Oh and also hottest boy in Samad. Gee I wonder who I picked. Though it was almost impossible to figure out the ugliest guy in La Salle.

They all seem to be ugly smelly pisspots you see.

After a looong night of calling Darus room and going like “I miss you mummy” It was time to sleep. So I slept.

Day Two.

The amount of wake up calls we had made me wanna BURN all the phones in the world X___________X I felt quite sick that day. Went on some of the rides, rockclimbed, posed, got stuck on the ferriswheel. Made a song.

“D***** I looooooooove youuuuuuu. But you don’t even know I exist.

D***** I looooooooooove youuuuuu. You’re so sexy that I can’t resist.”

Oh and then I see that D***** down, just laughing at me. So embarassing. I don’t love him. I don’t even know him. Hehe. He’s just so pretty. ;_;

And once I reached home, it was time to sleeeeeeeeeeep I wake up to the noise of a party downstairs. Apparently we had 40 people over. Sheesh. No one tells me anything T_T I broke a plate. My mom was so pissed.

And Today.

I had tution in the morning. Totally forgot. After tution, I went to a four year olds birthday party. Quite fun. There was a clown. And stick on tattoos. I won a purple colour bottle. Ate lots of candy.

Yeah, lots of fun

PS. Patrick is so in

PPS. We need walkietalkies. Your bills are getting too high. He he he. Btw, you’re not an ass laaaaaa. You’re not untrustable. You’re damn nice.

PPPS. I trust you also what.

Lets get these teen hearts beating faster, faster.

Okay so I’m not at school now. But in about one and a half our, I will be. Why? We’re going to go to Genting! Okay. Most of ya’ll might think Genting is boring bla bla bla, but personally, I love Genting. There might be global warming, causing it to be less cold, bla bla bla, but theres always that feeling the “genting feeling” like Jeff says it.

Okay okay, my most favorite part about this trip is going to be…

VISIT TO THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY =D

I know, OMG, right???

Brindha is like super jealous hehehe.

Okay, so I have to go get ready now

Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuahs

Don’t miss me too much, I’ll be back tomorrow =.=

So today was o-kay. Made RM145 I’m so happy. All we need now is about RM190 more!

Otherwise school was okay. I got called down to the Vestibule. I was like, so freaked out when I saw Puan Prema and Puan Sailaja (my teachers) with my cousin and head prefect. I was like “SHIT WHAT DID I DO?!?!” Then my cousin was like “Do you remember the quote we used three years ago? For Taylors?”

THANK GOD LA XD

Of course I remember the quote dear. I’m a walking quote-head haha.

Before I continue to my after school post -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIK =D

You’re like 17 now woman! hahaha. <3

Umm..since you think I’m actually blogging more about you, maybe I will. Nik rocks sooo much She just doesn’t know it. Or maybe she does. Tapi she don’t wanna like syok sendiri haha. Whatever la - she’s awesome. (Oh and she thinks I’m funny, which is why I like love her so muchh)

Anyways. I didn’t go for house practice after school. My legs and stomach sakit la. Went to Hanisahs house. I was in my Clare shirt. Then around 3.20pm I had to like get going cause at 4pm I had to sell floats right? So Hanisah and I went to makan in Rajus. We saw Justin there. It was time for me to go edi. Hanisah walked back home. Justin walked me back to school since he lives near school and all.

And guess what happens?

Puan Rose stops her car and asks me “Where are you going?”

And I was like “Um school?”

She asked me how come I wasn’t at house practice. I wanted to make it quick X_X I had to sell floats and the woman was too busy accusing me on the middle of the road.

I said “Um Sorry” (I didn’t want to be too rude you see)

And she was like “So your parents think you’re at house practice but you’re walking around with some guy?”

And she drives off.

I mean like, WTH HAPPENED TO BEING NICE? Want me to walk all alone from Rajus isit? Hanisah lives close to Rajus and I didn’t wanna trouble her. But Justin lives near our SCHOOL, might as well walk with him right? I’m not DOING anything wrong right? I tried to tell her about my leg and stomach but she wouldn’t believe me. I’m like geram laa. Justin was like “Is that the physco wong you always tell me about?” he he he. So he said the next time he wants to make sure a girl gets back safely to school without getting raped whatsoever, he’ll put a mop over his head so no teacher can accuse the girl of skipping practice to hang out with a guy. Sheesh. (btw, to my class gang who is reading this, I know you will all be wondering “WTH??!” don’t worry. i’ll explain nanti)

Oh and yeah I didn’t sell much floats All the trouble for nothing.

Anyways. I gotta go! xoxo

YUVANES ROCKS.

I swear, he ROCKS so much.

Remember my question tadi?

“If one person cares about the other person more than he cares about himself. And if the other person cares about that one person more than she cares about herself.”

How the hell would that work??

Well…

Yuvanes: If one person cares about the other person more than he cares about himself. And if the other person cares about that one person more than she cares about herself…

Yuvanes: Then it is perfect.

xoxoxoxo [ early evening ]

I finally talked to Hanisah properly in a damn long time. I swear if that girl goes to asrama, I’ll DIE. I told her the whooooooooooooooollllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee story. It felt good to let it out I guess. She doesn’t know what to say about it though =.= As usual, she insists I prepare myself for the worse because sometimes even if something feels like a fairytale, it might just end with a horrible anti-climax. It’s either;

a) She cares about me =D

or

b) She doesn’t want to deal with the water works =.=

Lol.

Anyhowever, today was awesomme I carried 7 bottles of rootbeer, 2 tubs of vanilla ice cream, a whole plastic bag full of crap. Wait, -heavy- crap. My back is SORE. X____X We ended up selling floats today. Made RM74. =.= Not good if you ask me, it was a “rainy day”. So no one was in the “mood” to drink something “cold”

SHEESH.

Oh and then someone screams cause she sees blood on my white school uniform sleeve =.= BCG burst you see. Usually puss comes out. This time blood. I bet Brindha is all like “EWWW” now

Anyhowever, I want to talk to everyone about something, holding on and letting go. We never know when to do it or when to not. Sometimes we make the wrong move, or a mistake. Sometimes we have to choose. Sometimes we don’t WANT to choose. But in the end of the day, we still have to do something. I know someone named D who ended up choosing (respect mate). I know someone named R who ended up letting go of both cause he couldn’t stand to hurt the other. I know someone named M who thinks the wait is worth it cause she rather hold on to the dude she loved rather than to listen to him and let him go.

Humans are so strange that way. Don’t you think?

If one person cares about the other person more than he cares about himself.

And if the other person cares about that one person more than she cares about herself.

How the hell does that work o.O

If anyone finds out, do let me know.

“Angels cry when stars collide

I can’t eat and I can’t breathe

I wouldn’t want it any other way”

xoxoxo [ 6.45 AM ]

Usually when you win stuff, like bets, you become happy. Today I won a bet I made with someone. You don’t see me jumping up and down. Instead, I’m controlling myself to not cry my eyes out.

Because, I won a bet.

xoxoxo [ 4.30 PM ]

Sometimes I wonder, what makes us real, what makes us alive. The rush of feelings and emotions running through our veins? Or the oxygen that goes down into our lungs.

I don’t know what else to say. I need to sleep. My head is hurting.

But what I can say is, it’s worth the wait. I just hope I lose the bet. I really, really hope, I lose the bet.

xoxoxo [ 7 AM ]

OMG 71 MORE DAYS TILL TASHA COMES FROM US AND 71 MORE DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY =D

So, Dionne? Did you like your surprise party?

I never want to grow out of the La Salle boys and Assunta girls pool parties phase
It’s wayy to fun. Especially when I got to push Aaron in, FOR THE FIRST TIME, without help <3>I hope ya’ll had as much fun as I did =] Have a funky 15 D!

xoxoxo [ 12-SOMETHING ]

So among all of us, Dionne gets to turn 15 first, lucky bissnitch. But after her, then it’s my turn =] Anyways, I’ve known Dionne since I was in primary school. We never liked eachother maybe until the last day of school in Form 2 Now we are close (but due to recent events…I think things are getting better? Yeah…) anywayys.

When I say Dionne, three things pop into my mind.

Pig.

Pigs.

PIGS.

Haha, anyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys.

I know you have all been so pissed off (Carmen, Harmini, Natalie, Jeff, etc. etc.) that I haven’t blogged. But what to do? BOSAN LAAAAAAAAAAA. When I don’t go out, I spend my day by going for TUTION and rereading Harry Potter the whole day. From Tuesday till Sunday I have tution in the MORNING. SO MUCH FOR “1 week BREAK” right???

So I didn’t want to bore everyone with my bosan life Sowee. (But now since Jeff insisted)

Tuesday;

Had Science tution in the morning. Came home and read Harry Potter the whole day. Deciedd to give my Harry Potter a break. Went to eat food. Stomach decides to hurt. Didn’t go for taekwondo.

Wednesday;

Was the ONLY day I got to wake up late. Went for BM tution at 1. Came back at 3. Shika and all came over. Was accused of making this little girl cry =.= BLEHHHHH.

Thursday;

Went for BM tution in the morning. Came home. Read Harry Potter. Went to Bangsar with Brindha. Went back to Brindhas house. Went looking around the whole Gasing for some stupid Tangki air. Don’t ask hehehe.

Friday (aka today);

Went for Math tution in the morning. We’re done with Indices thank God. We’re on Algebraic Expressions now. Then I came home. Decided to blog and update everyone with my boring life.

See, I bet you didn’t wish I told you about my boring life?? TOLD YOU RIGHT. SHEESH. But maybe after tonight, you’ll get a real nice update Mayyyyyyyyybe ;]

I guess that’s all for now. I have to continue reading Harry Potter now =X

Oh wait - before I go. My whole Harry Potter craze has lead me to goign to Deviant Art to read fan art and comic strips and all. I think so far - this is my favorite Though it’s quite gay…. (click here..hehehe)

3) Assuntas Leo IU =D This Saturday ya’ll!

Oh and yeah my exams are going on all well No worries.

Before I blog about my lovely day with Hanisah, Diyanah, Michelle and Brindha, I would like to say;

I HATE HIM.

I HATE HIM SO MUCH.

HE IS A HYPOCRITE.

YOU -ALL- SAW THE “GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE” MESSAGES.

AND WHEN I CONFRONT THE BOY ABOUT THE OTHER STATEMENT HE MENTIONED.

HE SAYS “YOU GOT THE WRONG PERSON”

YEAH RIGHT.

THEN HE SAYS “LEAVE ME ALONE”

THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I’VE BEEN DOING FOR A VERY VERY LONG TIME.

UNTIL HE DECIDES TO PULL OFF THE WHOLE CONCERNED FRIEND SHIT.

YOU KNOW WHEN HE STARTS TALKING TO ME AGAIN.

I WAS COMPLETELY OBJECTIVE IN THE WHOLE IDEA.

AND EVERYONE WHO WAS WITH ME ON FRIDAY KNOWS THAT.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

I HATE HIM.

Brindha: You know how you always curse people to get hit by trucks?

Me: Yeah..hehe.

Brindha: -He- almost did.

*we practically get hit by trucks ourselves cause we stop in the middle of the road just LAUGHING*

See…my curses do work. Hehe, so piss me off and you’ll get hit by a truck.

Anyways. Today was brilliant. Brindha and Michelle come over and we all go to Sungei Wang to look for the things you can never find at other malls. So after getting what we needed, we met up with Hanisah and Diyanah We lepaked there for a little while more then we go to Times Square. First we go to IMAX, cause SOMEONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE said that they were showing 300 there But apparently not, lol. So we went to watch it in GSC. While waiting in the line, I got the FRIGHT of my LIFE. IT was TERRYFYING. X____________X

But whatever. The movie was like SO COOL. All the guys had like 6/8 packs. I know omg right??? To top it all of, throughout the WHOLE MOVIE, they were in their UNDERWEAR. I knowwwww. But most of them were ugly hairy men. Maybe older women would like them but um eww. But there was this one dude. Who was like so hot. But it didn’t matter cause some other Japanese loser chopped his head off.

Oh and Hanisah and I love Nandos. Cause they only deliver HOT CHICKS

Anyhowever, I will blog about something funny soon. The only factor that started my whole bloggersblock is global warming. It is wayyyy to hot to blog. I must move to a different country. Greenland perhaps? (Iceland is GREEN. Greenland is ICY. Stooopid)

=D

Okay. I feel like watching Music & Lyrics again. Byebye!!!

If you are wondering which he I am referring to, it is the he who has What Goes Around as his friendster profile song. If you know who and what I’m talking about, and most probably either shocked/disappointed…keep it to yourself. Cause honestly, I don’t care.

Things to look forward too:

1) The same as mentioned earlier in my previous post

2) Exams to be overrrrrrrrrr x__________________________X

Okay so tomorrow is our last day of our first exams Do any of ya’ll have ANY idea how superlyglad I am? I am extremely superly glad!!!

Despite all that, there are some problems we all can’t seem to deny. Notice our new seating arrangements? Notice the overlydose of bissiness/hate? I’m trying to put myself together here, a little bit of cooperation will do the trick We don’t need to act like little kids to solve this y’know? I just want to talk to you I miss you. I want to bang you. I want to force you to make me mash potatoes. The list goes on.

“once i had a friend that i could count on, so i thought, well, so it seemed, but times of need are not enough to prove your friendship to me. once i saw a face that i believed was in, but a mask was all there was. so who wears masks & who wears the faces, well i guess ill never know.”

Anyhowever,

Razik sent me that music&lyrics songg. Ohhh myyy Gaawddd!!!! No, not Pop goes my heart (though if you have it, SEND IT TO ME). He sent the “way back into love” *dies* DON’T YOU JUST LOVE HUGH GRANT?????

HE IS SO HOT.

I LOVE HIM.

I HAVE NEVER -EVER- LOVED ANYONE ON TV AS MUCH AS I LOVE HIM.

I mean, have you SEEN Music and Lyrics??? LOVE ACTUALLY???!!?!?!?!? Briget Jones?!?!? HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THE MAN??

He is a GOD.