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“Every story has a soundtrack, and I’m just
asking for your heartbeat to set the tempo.”

xoxoxo [ 4.37 PM ]

Okay so my dirty little secret dah terbongkar to everybody.

I kept my mouth shut. But somehow everyone knows.

But if you are very interested to know what’s gonna happen; nothing Because it’s wise to not be stupid. I’m very good at being stupid, seriously. So take it from me. And plus, the thing I feared of most, is happening. Which is what made me realize that Naomi and Anysa were right all along about a certain someone.

Why do bad things always happen to meee? ;_; I’m such a saint. I tak faham laaaa. I don’t believe in superstitions and whatevernot, but it’s like this big black cloud of bad luck is over my head and is following me wherever I go!!! I run. It follows. I hide. It seeks.

Sedih la

Anyways, unlike some people, I went for BM tution today Going for BM tution makes me happy. And today, despite the fact I was so very sick and took lots of effort concentrating, I still managed to write a totally awesome karangan. Cikgu Zul was like “Karangan awak saaaangat baik” *melts* I so totally love him, lol.

I bet Carrie, Ju Li, Brin are all like “ewwwww” now. Blegh.

OMG. I forgot.

MY PARENTS ARE BACK =D YAYYYY!!!!!

I know, this is totally not teenager-ish to be all happy and excited that you’re parents aren’t a 10000000miles away from you anymore. But I miiiiiiis them sooooo much. Both of them got tattoos. My mom’s one is quite hot actually ;] Hehe. My dad got this totally beautiful Om sign on his right arm. When I’m older, I want an Om sign on my right arm too And maybe a spider on my butt but that’s a different story.

Okay, so treats

- baby blue billabong handbag.

- black and pink roxy pencil case

- wild rust roxy tshirt

- brown-knit-top-thingy

- a few other tshirts and skirts

- CHOCOLATE. Lots and lots of chocolate!!!!!

But alas, I’m sick and I can’t finish off my lifetime suppy of chocolate, yet.

Hmm…what else arr? Haih. I REALLY WISH MY COMPUTER AT HOME WILL GET FIXED ALREADY (I’m using the com at my grandmas house now) I MEAN I HAD THIS TOTALLY AWESOME POST AND I WAS PREPARING STUFFS FOR IT AND ALL, AND BAMKRASHBOOM THE COMPUTER DIES. WHY LA. WHY MEEEE.

ONCE AGAIN, WHY DO BAD THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO MEEEEE????

So this tragic tale will explain why I can hardly come online or blog as often. Aiteeee? So no more “UPDATE LAA” smss’ from you people.

Things I’m looking forward too-

- My rock and roll themed birthday party on May 28

- PMR to be over

Things I’m NOT looking forwads too-

- Deciding who to invite and who to not invite for my superawesome birthdayparty.

- PMR to actually start o.o;;

Thing that I’m soo looking forward too and the description of my happiness can’t be written with words (but can be judged by size of text :));

- Tasha to come to Malaysia on May 28th!!!

- Harry Potter final book!!!

- Getting 7As and going to Thailand(and India?)!!!

- Turning Fondue 15!!!

This year, is definitely gonna be a very hard year. Where we figure out lots of stuff and strive hard for what we wanna achieve. But at the same time, on an optimistic point of view, it’ll also be a year where we learn, change, survive.

thats all for now. mwahs.

WHY AM I SO STUPIDDDDDDD LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

you remind me of a song i used to know.

So everytime Harmini and I talk she’s like how are you and I say oh I’m fine and she then asks real fine or fake fine and obviously, fake fine. But if you asked me how I’m feeling today, I’m soooooo fine Real fine.

Why? Hehehe, for me to you and you to find out. But trust me, if you asked me I doubt it I’d tell you the truth.

Before that,

Happy Fondue 15 Spellman!!! (23rd April)

Happy Fondue 15 Li Ling!!! (24th April)

Happy Sweet 16 Nish!!! (25th April)

I love birthdays, don’t you just love birthdays? Speaking of birthdays, mine’s in 4 weeks and 4 days!!! I know, how awesome is that? Totally

I’m guessing you ALL know that I’m sick since I’ve been whining and whatevernot, lol. Haih. After I get better. I want to eat a whole box of pineapples. A whole box of chocolates. And a tankfull of icecream. *drool* Oh and not to forget, a tubfull of belacan.

Yes, I know I’m extremely disgusting, what’s your point?

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpimu

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri

So today our topic will be trust and misjudgement.

Today I found out someone that I totally trusted all along, goes by the name of black power ranger, totally betrayed my trust. Obviously, I was sad la. I mean like. You trust someone and BAM. Betrays you. Agghh.

And misjudgement? I was wrong all along about Raevin. I guess I owe him an apology. Sorry. But I’m glad we’re friends again

And otherwise; life is all right. We’re having our mids in three weeks. Lit Night is coming up soon. Our theme is: Mirrors. Exactly 5 more weeks till my birthday and till Tasha comes to Malaysia!!! Btw, I have a dilemma, should I or should I not have a theme? BOYS MAY NOT ANSWER TO THIS, because all the boys I know are losers who hate to dress up. Cept Jeff. He dresses up And if I do have a theme, I’m thinking rock and roll? Carmen. Harmini. Kim. Tasha. YOU MUST COME.

Speaking of birthdays…guess who turns 15 today?

Well, she and I totally ruled primary school together. We read lame loveydovey comics and cried reading it. We ruled Planet Talk-a-Lot. Haha, that’s right…

(Sorry, I couldn’t find a decent picture of you. xD so yeah. forensics pic of you and I. love ya!!)

Okay, so here’s the totally awesome Saturday update

Saturday morning we had our sports day!!! So I don’t run nor do I cheer. But I got Clare spirit man!!! =D Even though Clare never fails to um, fail. We are in total spirit and we always support all the other teams. Cause we rock, duhh. This year our mascot was Nadrah; I wish I took a pic with her, she looked awesome. Trif was wearing this blue baju thingy, she looked so cute, it was soo big for her and all lol;

I think Trif is like one of those very few From 5 girls that I’m going to miss once this year ends. Haih. I hate it when the year ends Hardly get to see all those friendly form 5 faces. Bleh. Another loser I’ll miss is definitely Amelia

Anyhowever, for Senior Cheerleading, Hermine won first place =D We were all totally supporting Hermine cause Carrie was like co-captain and omg, they were AWESOME. Carrie we’re so proud of you Come to think about it, ever since Form 1, every team that Carrie has been in, they never failed to bring 1st place. Chun kan?

I totally love the above pic haha. Anyhowever, Sports Day was overall fun laa It was so funny. Assuntarians were trying to sneak out but there were dicipline teachers guarding all gates and it was almost impossible to get out X_X And La Sallians were climbing over the walls to get in! Haha, the best part was when Ho Wing Jun was like,

“I’LL PAY YOU FIVE BUCKS TO PRETEND TO BE MY SISTER”

and I was like “HO WING JUN. DO I LOOK CHINESE TO YOU? CLIMB OVER THE WALL FOR ALL I CARE”

and guess what? He climbs over the wall =.=;; That boy is totally in love with Diyanah. Stupid Form 1 kids lol.

Brindha was totally stressed cause we all had to rush back home (and we couldn’t get out) cause we had to get ready for ICC and it was in freaking Sentul opposite La Salle Sentul x_x We were giving the LAMEST excuses to Viji then Atthiya tells us all we had to say to Viji was we were going for ICC and she’d let us out =.= then Viji was all like “Never tell lies girls, never tell lies…” Freeeeeeeeeeaky. For those of ya’ll who don’t know, Viji is the woman who guards are school, but she is secretly a man. Shh.

Anyways, the four of us managed to rush back to Brindhas house on time, and we were all running around the house getting ready. Seriously, things were getting messy like; “WHY ISNT THE STRAIGHTENER WORKING?” or “EYELINER??? MASCARA??? WHERE!??” xD Haha, poor Brins brother, he was sick and I bet he was like “Girls are MAD” Blegh, it takes hard work looking so good aite? Pfft lol.

So when we reached the hall, the first thing I see is bleeeeeeeghhh. And then the second thing I see is Mrs.Bleeeeeeeeegh. What a great way to start the last time I can have any possible Interact fun T_T But like, whatever. I saw some old faces I didn’t see Carmen tho T_T (Sri Aman Carmen, not Perimbun Carmen, lol) Okay so anyywayys, our theme for ICC was;

And guess who the emcees were? Serena C and Christian!!!!! If you pay closer attention to the picture above, you will see a very short lady (Serena C) and a total tall chunk next to her (Christian). Haha, so my favorite part of ANY Interact event is definitely, ROLLCALL They say our schools name and obviously, we clap cheer and scream!

Okay so it was my first ICC show. And it was AWESOME. It’s not like your typical boring IU, hell no. It was so profesionally done and omg, it was truely OMGWOW worthy I loved the lights and sounds show. Oh yeeeah. Weng Onn, Dionne, Hanisah, Warren, Brindha, Su Kim, Nana, Iman, Nat and I sat on one row behind and in front more Assuntarians. And guess what? Assunta won the Cultural Performance as well as Modern Dance. Well, the Modern Dance was a mix of Assunta with guys from other schools, but girls count more So like yeahh haha. Total chemical reaction eh?

I bet you want me to shut up and stop talking right?

I bet you wanna see pictures right?

OF ME RIGHT????

=D Of course you do! Though some of the pics are blurry, sorry bout that!

Anyhowever; I didn’t see Yuvanes or Carmen (Sri Aman) so I guess I was sorta disappointed But I somehow amazingly became closer to Su Kim. Which totally rocks. I love that girl, she’s sooo awesome.

After ICC, us girls went to Megamall to have some dinner. We bumped into some seniors of ours that were in their House sports uniform (red aka Assunta House) and they were carrying like signboards and all, haha, total Assunta spirit mann

Dinner was fun. YEAH MANN XD Hahahahhahaha.

Okay, so bla bla bla and bla, Brindha and I came home and well, it was a looooong tiring day. We crashed right after.

Oh but wait I’m not done yet. I think other than that totally awesome picture Rubesh and I took, this definitely wins the most totally awesome picture award for the day

Warrens brother, Dwayne. Well, it’s not really Dwayne. It’s his alter-ego, Mr.Minnie Mouse.

he he he

xoxoxo [ 12-something in the afternoon ]

At any given moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don’t have control over most of them. When we get a chill…goose bumps. When we get excited…adrenaline. The body naturally follows it’s impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we would rather not control, that we later wish we had.

The body is a slave to it’s impulses. But the thing that makes us human is what we can control. After the storm, after the rush, after the heat of the moment has passed, we can cool off and clean up the messes we made. We can try to let go of what was.

What better way to start off my posts with lessons we learn from Greys Anatomy? So lately I’ve either been at my grandmas house or Brins house. My rents went to South Africa. First of all, South Africa is civilized. The first thing Jeff said when I told him my parents were going he was like “OMG. NO AIRCON?” Jeff is such a bimbo

Okay so I really really want to blog about yesterday. But I don’t have my USB cable with me at the mo So when I do get it, I promise you I’ll blog about it aiiiiiiiite? Cause a fun post isnt’ a fun post without some pictures (mostly of me but like yeeeah) Oh and no I didn’t go for GC, I did have tics but I ended up giving them away last min. I think almost -everyone- got free tics wayy, too easy Now, if Simple Plan ever came back to KL….I swear, you’ll see me on the front page of the newspaper with the headlines “GIRL ATTACKS AND UNDRESSES PIERRE, LEAD SINGER OF SIMPLE PLAN” *melts* I LOVE HIM.

So believe it or not; Naomi and I were having a smart conversation earlier. About what makes us girls all emoshit when we get dumped/cheatedon or when you find out your friend totally backstabs you by slobbering her face all over the guy you like. And yeah, we get messed up. Really, really messed up. And although it may seem real, it’s never real, because if it were real, it wouldn’t hurt. It was just different, never the same, but still - not real. I guess it’s easy to say it. Trust me, very very very easy to say that. But the most difficult thing in the world to understand. Aiyah - sooner or later, we all get over it. Just blast your radio with fall out boy or simple plan and you’ll be fine

“But, I believe in you so much

While you’re chasin’ ghosts“

And sometimes, Dashboard Confessional wroks as well

Haha, okay. One more thing that will definitely help. With the help of Mr.Squarepants and Mr.Star of course

[Looking for Squidward in a crowd of squids]

SpongeBob SquarePants: Are you Squidward?

Squid #1: No.

SpongeBob SquarePants: Are you Squidward?

Squid #2: No.

Patrick: [to a fire hydrant] Are you Squidward?

[silence]

Patrick: It’s okay. Take your time.

XD hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

I lost my mind so that I could be alive

Yeah so I haven’t been blogging lately mainly cause my computer went KABOOM. The reason my computer goes KABOOM is well, lately we’ve been having horrible storms. At first, I was convinced these storms were all caused by my neverending misery, but sooner or later I figured out the world doesn’t revolve around me and storms actually CAN be caused by other reasons like penggondolan tanah or wtv.

Anyhowever

My studies are okaaaaaay la. Math is eating my brain out, but otherwise, I’m fine.

Okay, honestly I want to be a feminazi. I think that’s a slash between and feminist and a nazi. My first victim will be Darren. Until he decides to STOP CALLING ME ANIMAL - he shall be top on my feminazi torture list I also want to be a feminazi for various other reasons. Bleeeeeeeeghhhhhhh.

Omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

So laaaaaaast time right, I use to play soccer at RSC. So like yesterday I went to RSC to try the whole netball thing out. It happens during the same time as soccer, so I met some old friends and made new ones during netball! Apparently, I’m quite good. I just need to catch the ball with my hands, not my chest. Oh and I didn’t know you couldn’t header in netball. Bleh. Okay to be honest right, during netball, I didn’t even BOTHER boywatching all the dudes playing soccer! I didn’t even SCAN for Akbar or anyone.

SERIOUSLY WEYH.

Hanisah says I misuse sports.

Yeah, right.

Anyways, so after netball, I bathe in the ladies locker room bla bla bla, and I rush out then suddenly this dude stops me. I’m thinking “Casper?” (Anysas totally hot 14 year old neighbour) and this dude was like “Heyyy…are you Shivani?” and I was like “Umm..yeahh…do I like know you..??” in my head “CASPERCASPER” and he said, “You can’t remember me?” and in my head I was like “CASPERRRRRRRRRRR” and then I said,

“Johan?”

and I think we talked or something. I don’t know. I was in a rush. x___x So yeah, not Casper, but Johan. he he he. He’s like so cute laa xD

I bet Hanisah is shaking her head in disapproval now. Haih.

Omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

ICC is this Saturday Okaaaaaaaaaaay. So this is my first ICC going with all my friends. I AM SO EXCITED. Do you wanna know what I’m wearing? Okay good I’ll tell you!!!! It’s this totally pretty plain but pretty black top from Blook. And my totally awesome pair of jeans. And my killer black heels that you all love

I CAN’T WAIT TO TAKE PICTURES WITH EVERYONE.

mwahahahahahahahahahahaha.

(yes black power ranger, this includes you as well)

Something to cheer us all up

shrek: quick, tell a lie!

pinocchio: what should i say?

donkey: say something crazy… like you’re wearing ladies underwear.

pinocchio: um. okay. i’m wearing ladies underwear.

[silence]

shrek: are you?

pinocchio: i most certainly am not.

[pinocchio’s nose extends]

donkey: it looks like you most certainly am are.

pinocchio: i am not!

[pinocchio’s nose extends again]

puss-in-boots: what kind?!

gingerbread man: IT’S A THONG!!

goodnight ya’ll

Time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. For even the strongest of us it seems to play tricks. Slowing down… hovering until it freezes. Leaving us stuck in a moment- unable to move in one direction or the other.

Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us can want is more time. Time to stand up. Time to grow up. Time to let go. Time.

So, if you could turn back time, what would you do?

I would have never gone to the mamak stall. Blegghhh.

Ju Li says she would visit australia again and enjoy the yummy krispy kreme doughnuts.

Now when I think about it, I want to go back to US and eat every flavour of pancake at IHOP

A better choice to turn back time for.

So, happy (or unhappy?) Friday the 13th ya’ll

So here’s the series of unfortunate events we encountered today…

I lost the class pass.

Thank God I found it again.

After school, there was a horrible accident that we witnessed.

x_x

Then Brin and I turn up LATE for our Interact Exam.

Get sounded by Nadrah.

Our first commandment in Interact is;

“Thou shall always be punctual”

=.=

Then Hanisah gets harassed.

THEN I GET ASKED BY THIS FORM ONE GIRL “SHIVANI, WHATS YOUR BROTHERS NAME?”

Of course, I replied “WTH? MIND YOUR OWN BUISNESS”

Grrrrrrrrr.

Then I lose my math-mojo!

I lost my math-mojo

Anyhowever;

Reshmin: u ok?

Me: i dont know. i feel like im not human anymore. just this piece of matter.

Have you guys ever wondered if we didn’t have souls? Wondered if we were just pieces of matter sucked onto this big ball of gravity?

I wonder if we are.

p.s// I can’t blog as frequent anymore. My computer went BAMKABOOOOOOOM.

- I updated the previous Assunta IU post with a few more pictures, check it out kayyy -

A good basketball game can have us all on the edge of our seats. Games are all about the glory, pain and the play by play. And then there are the more solitary games. The games we play all by ourselves. The social games, the mind games. We use them to pass the time to make life more interesting… to distract us from what’s really going on. There are those of us who love to play games, any games. And there are those of us who love to play a little too much.

So go ahead… argue with the ref, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play. Play. Play hard, play fast… play loose and free. Play as if there’s no tomorrow. Okay, so it’s not whether you win or lose, it’s how you play the game… right?

The above is the simple reason why I am a Greys Anatomy fanatic. I love Greys Anatomy. I don’t think I’ve loved anything as much I love watching Greys Anatomy every Sunday night. Even my One Tree Hill addiction can’t top this off.

It’s true love, I swear.

Anyhowever;

if you’re all wondering why I can’t come online, it’s cause I’m grounded. That or I may have blocked you, haha. Okay okay no, seriously, I’m grounded. I’m allowed to use the net to blog (THANK GOD) and do homework and stuff and read comics bla bla bla. Basically, I’m not allowed to chat. Until when? I have no idea. Yes yes, I miss all you people too.

So today was awesome After school, Hanisah and I walked back to her house so we could finish off our BM peta minda thing. On our way down to the store to buy paper, guess what? It RAINS. It rains SO heavily. And we were getting wet in our ugly blue school uniforms. And suddenly she and I started to sing,

“Let the rain fall down, I’m coming clean”

Haha, remember that Hillary Duff song? Yeah. It was so fun laaa

And ohmygosh; I’ve never put soo much energy let alone effort in finishing something for school (BM SUMMORE!). Hanisah says my BM oral thingy I wrote today was good I know I’m brilliant, thank you, thank you. And my Math is getting so awesome. Auretta envies me. Hehehe. w00t. I got my mojo back, yeah!!!

Anyhowever; I was suppose to go for taekwondo today. But I got a visit from my grandmother in a red ferrari…..if you get what I mean ^^;

Ohhyeah; so on Sunday Brindha and I decided to experiment on a cake and frosting, and it turned out soooooooo pretty;

Ah well; I need to go finish my homework from Phsyco lady =.= Damn, I hate school

Whatever doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger.

*go go powerrangers*

btw, does anyone remember the name of that evil queen in powerrangers???

xoxoxo [ 11.45 AM ]

Of leprechauns and ketupats.

So yesterday was our IU day

Our theme;

Animalia =D

So it was quite okaaay la. There were so many animals Farah (white) brought her snake. It was like so cool omg. The skin was just soooooooo sexy. And Anysa brought her dog that tried to eat the damn rabbits.

AND ATTHIYA BROUGHT CHICKS. (and a very neglected chicken)

There’s this dude, Samad dude, Razreen, he asked Atthiya if he could take one home. She said sure. He said “Hey look mom, I brought a chick home” xD hehe. so stupid.

So back to the chicken,

Gross right? Totally.

Anyways, the IU was mainly about animal awareness and well, save-the-animals, sort of thing. It was considerably okay. Black power ranger wasn’t there. Bodoh. Lol

Nothing much to say la; not much people came.

Oh yeah, of course we posed

First impressions on attraction mean nothing in the end.

I have never believed Jeffs theory on that, but now I have to admit, that boy was right.

Anyhowever, I know I haven’t updated in a loong time. But I’ve needed some time to…chill. A break from reality. My sweet sweet chocolate fondue said and I quote, “Move on. No point wasting your time and energy. So move on, everyone’s doing it anyways.” So guess what? I’ve moved on haha. Or maybe in process la, but still!

So Monday was um, boring.

Tuesday was um, boring.

Wednesday was um, awesome. Went to KLCC after school, went to Tower Records, saw Chester Bennington from Linkin Park!!! I know, awesome right? Though I didn’t get to like get his autograph cause I’m an idiot as Darren says I am, it’s the fact I actually SAW him.

When I was in std 6, I made a swear, that I cannot die until I see Chester and Mike from Linkin park and Pierre from Simple Plan.

In form 1, I met Pierre.

In form 2, I met Mike.

And on Wednesday, I met Chester.

I can now die peacefully!

wooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo!!!!

After that went to Bangsar to celebrate my cousins 17th birthday.

Happy Birthday Takshi!!! =D

And then we went back to my grandmas house to cut the cake.

Thursday was um, soooooooooo tiring. After cutting and paku-ing wood during KH, school finished, then rushed to eat, then we had an Interact meeting till like 4.30 and after that my mom took Brindha, Hanisah and I to eat chicken rice, haha and after that I went to my grandmas house again for my granduncles birthday, he turns 52 Oh and I go back home then. Then at 10.30 at night, we go to KLCC to watch Namaste London. HAHA EVERYONE (who watches Hindi movies) MUST WATCH THIS IF YOUR PARENTS ARE THE TYPICAL MUST-GET-MARRIED-TO-INDIAN-BOY MOVIE =D I’m not getting married to an Indian guy cause I need to put a stop to the extra-hairy-race of human beings, sorry mum.

And today (Friday) was AWESOME

I woke up around 11-something. Felt sooooo good not waking up at 6.30 in the morning. I don’t think anyone understands how HAPPY we get when we get a single day off. It’s the most amazing feeling like, ever.

AND HAHAHA TO ALL YOU LOSERS WHO DIDN’T GET A DAY OFF.

My school use to be runned by like nuns, so yeah we get Good Friday off

And then Hanisah left around 5, I took a nap and woke up around 7 and went to tution and I just got back.

Anyhowever, tomorrow, Saturday, is my schools Interact IU Despite the fact there will be a LOT of people I really wish I could avoid, the fact is dears, the first thing all of ya’ll will see the moment you step in the school is Me, Hanisah, Brindha and Ju Li dressed as leprechauns. No, seriously. We’re so hot, practically goddesses, and we’re being forced to wear the most ridiculous. Wait, ridiculous is an understatement. The most HIDEOUS shade of limegreen. Eee And what makes it worst is that now since we’ll be the first people you people see, it’ll be almost impossible to hide from -anyone-.

But hopefully, we’ll all have a wonderful time and you’ll all have this international understanding on animal rights/awareness

Btw, our theme is Animalia, so expect lots of animals!

P.S// HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KARAN AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIK =D lol, gaymos.